For a random poem, written on the spot.
These nights blur
No line between dream and life
And what lines were are now erased
By the way my mind will whir
Sleep wake faint
Do not sleep at all
Or the nightmares come
To my mind to taint
Vivid horrors from days past
Wake me shake me
Tear me up
Until I feel I won't last
I cannot scream cry sob
My tears fall but voice locks
As shadows mock me
Like a coming mob
I know these shadows by name
They've blurred my reason
Stuffed my mind
And brought me such shame
And these nights blur
No line between dream and life
And what lines were are now erased
By the way my mind will whir
My heart bleeds freely now
Torn open and shredded
Do You see me
Please sew me up somehow
Events crash around me
The pain and turmoil
Quadrupled by one's death
And my heart cries intensely
God, oh God of creation!
This burden weighs heavy
You promised it light
Mercy though I've brought damnation
And these nights blur
No line between dream and life
And what lines were are now erased
By the way these shadows whir
Wash my hands, oh Lord of Hosts
Of this sickness
Wash my hands
Of these vengeful ghosts
You love me so much despite these!
You take me up
You hold me close
And You wash me of this disease
And these nights, peace
No line between dream and sleep
And what sins were are now erased
By the way You bring release